So, one of the things I've been asked by a lot of people lately is "what's going on with the foster care thing?" The short answer is we're on a semi-pause for right now, and I don't know. Also, we're not allowed to post pictures or talk about the children on social media, so anything I say in that regards will be vague on purpose. :)
We've asked to be put on respite only status. Respite gives us a chance to still do something, and hopefully be a blessing to other families, but not take on a permanent placement. We've got a lot (a lot) going on right now, and in the near future, and because of the potential instability of it all, we thought this was the best course. The last thing we want to do is take on a case & not be able to finish it knowing that we could have prevented a child from having to placed in yet another home.
Since then, we've done respite twice for one precious little child. It was a really wonderful (as wonderful as foster care can be) first experience. This little one is just as sweet and happy as can be. My heart hurt for her parents knowing they had no clue where she was, who was watching her, or how she was doing, and of course for the child herself hoping & praying that she felt safe and happy with us, but overall, there were very few tears, and smiles all around. Annaleigh in particular, was in heaven for the weekend, sweet girl.
(Originally, I was just going to put prints for the children that came into our home, since they are in my prayers now too, the yellow prints are for the children we never met)
So she was our first first. Friday we had another first...in which I turned down a "real" placement. I can't even tell you how much it hurt (and still does). Even though my head tells me it was the right decision, I can't stop thinking about her & praying that she has found a safe place to live for the time being. "Funny" thing is, if I had gotten the call even an hour earlier, I probably would have said "yes" but in that hour my world sort of imploded, so I suppose the timing was in God's hands.
Within a day of that, we got another two calls...one we didn't get the correct call back number, so we were never even able to follow up on the case, and the other was one we definitely couldn't take. Can I just tell you the craziness of those placement calls!? Trying to decide on the spot from very little information whether or not you are able to bring another person into your family for an indefinite amount of time-it's pretty overwhelming!
So where are with with foster care? I just don't know. Getting those calls for the full time placement really made me want to put us back on the call list, but at the same time all those instability factors are still here. So for right now, we're going to focus on getting our family whole again (soon!!) and after that we'll have to have a talk and pray about what to do. In the meantime, my prayer is just that we are open to whatever purpose God has planned with all of this.